[cs_content][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 45px 0px 0px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ style=”padding: 0px;”][cs_text]Day 1, May 2, 2016

So, I guess I should start this by telling you who I am. Well, maybe not everything about who I am. I leave that for you to decide on after reading these ramblings for a bit. That’s what writing does though, right? It tells you who a person is based on their word choice, sentence structure, phrases, and content. Even if you only pay attention to the last one, it still gives insight into the mind behind the words, like fleshing out a character in a story via inner monologue. Anyways, a little about me.

My name is Chris. I am a 28 year old father of two, with a beautiful wife and almost no clue what I want to be when I grow up. I am a Senior Admin of a very large gaming community, an unarmed security guard for various construction sites, involved in marketing and outside sales for a consulting company, and a logistics specialist for a production audio company. And those are just the jobs I have outside of my home life. On top of it all I am a father, a dad (my kids refuse to call me daddy or dada. I am dad to them, and it is very different from just being a father. Anyone can be a father, not everyone deserves to be called “dad”), a husband, and a friend. Needless to say, my life is busy.

I live in California, one of the most beautiful states in the USA, albeit also one of the most expensive, in a little two bedroom apartment across the street from a fricken train yard. (I have come to deeply loathe trains as a result, no matter how much they enthrall my children). My folks and in-laws live fairly close by – only being about an hour and half to two hours away. I had been attending Biola University, had to put those dreams on hold in order to afford my rent, (remember that part about Cali being expensive? wasn’t joking).[/cs_text][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 0px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ class=”cs-ta-center” style=”padding: 0px;”][x_line style=”border-top-width: 1px;”][x_image type=”none” src=”https://dadsofdestiny.net/wp-content/uploads/2016/05/train-trimmed.jpg” alt=”” link=”false” href=”#” title=”” target=”” info=”none” info_place=”top” info_trigger=”hover” info_content=””][x_line style=”border-top-width: 1px;”][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 0px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ style=”padding: 0px;”][cs_text]I decided to start writing this because it had occurred to me that many of you guys, (the members of the gaming community I help run), might have some exaggerated opinions of the Senior Admin team. This is my way of connecting with you. The most frequent question I get, outside of requests for certain new features or how a clan system works, is what exactly do we “Dadmins” actually do. Well, this is going to give you a bit of an uncensored glimpse into the life of a Dadmin. At least, a glimpse into the life of one of them. I guess at this point I should warn that there might be content in here that younger eyes should avoid reading. I mean, it’s not gonna be a smut mag or so full of profanity that a longshoreman would balk, but I will be discussing topics that kids just won’t get. Like the trials of being married, of having kids and just not knowing what to do with them sometimes, and of trying to find a balance between managing this amazing community and actually living by its tenants of “Family, Work, Gaming.” Much harder in practice than in recitation, let me assure you. Also, I am not a professional writer, so if my prose is a bit repetitive, forgive me. So, without any further ado, here we go with Day 1.

It is currently 0457 on May 2nd. I’m sitting at work in a construction yard, which usually means that my day is almost finished. Today is a little different. I have a funeral to attend at about 1100 for an uncle that just recently passed.

Now, this isn’t quite as sad as it sounds.

For one, I didn’t really know the uncle too well. He was family, so it sucks that he’s dead, but it wasn’t as if we were having coffee once a week and calling each other besties or anything. I just don’t like funerals. I mean, I guess no one really does, but they seem to hit me a little harder than most. A funeral on a Monday will wreck me until Friday. This one is no different. I’ve been moody and grumpy all week, and the rest of the week isn’t looking much better.[/cs_text][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 0px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ style=”padding: 0px;”][x_blockquote cite=”” type=”center”]…and actually living by it’s tenants of “Family, Work, Gaming.”[/x_blockquote][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 0px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ style=”padding: 0px;”][cs_text]I started giving some thought to that though. While I didn’t know the uncle too well I do have fond memories of time spent with him. I remember when I was younger he would let me and my brother play 007 Goldeneye on his N64 whenever we stayed over. It was one of those things that he didn’t have to do, he just wanted to be nice. It spoke volumes to who he was as an individual. It would be like letting a related kid stranger sit down and play a few rounds of Crucible on your X1 for hours on end when they visited. It says a lot about the heart of the man. He was kind and really did just want to bless people as he was able. Makes me wish that I had known him a little better.

I joked with my brother about it all though. Two months ago I lost an aunt to cancer, and I just found out that my grandfather has terminal cancer and will be dead in a few months if he’s lucky. I told my brother I was worried. I’m quickly running out of family members that I’m only acquainted with. Pretty soon, the ones that I am actually close to are gonna be the only ones left to lose. A little crass maybe, but it’s true. I’m one of those guys that still has a good relationship with all of his siblings and parents. This day and age, that is becoming a rarity.[/cs_text][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][cs_section parallax=”false” style=”margin: 0px;padding: 0px 0px 45px;”][cs_row inner_container=”true” marginless_columns=”false” style=”margin: 0px auto;padding: 0px;”][cs_column fade=”false” fade_animation=”in” fade_animation_offset=”45px” fade_duration=”750″ type=”1/1″ style=”padding: 0px;”][cs_text]So with all of that being said, it is one of those days where I am actually not looking forward to getting off work. I’d rather sit here in my car with the windows down and the engine off in 40 degree weather than facing what I know is coming in just a few hours. I don’t even have time for a quick nap in between. Just enough for a shower and to pop some no-doze. Then it’s off to a funeral service and the inevitable conversation with my 3 year old about the permanence of death. (Ever tried explaining death to a toddler? Even with the Religious beliefs of a Christian, knowing that the deceased didn’t share those beliefs and the ramifications that has on his soul is not going to be the most encouraging of discussions with my boy. The concept of Hell just doesn’t translate to a toddler brain.) So I’m already writing a short speech in my head for when he starts asking questions. Wish me luck…[/cs_text][/cs_column][/cs_row][/cs_section][/cs_content]

KaiCiunus

KaiCiunus

Former Dadmin at Dads of Destiny
My name is Chris. I am a 28 year old father of two, with a beautiful wife and almost no clue what I want to be when I grow up. I am a an unarmed security guard for various construction sites, involved in marketing and outside sales for a consulting company, and a logistics specialist for a production audio company. And those are just the jobs I have outside of my home life.
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